The First Point of Being

Cunault

October 3. 

Some notes from recent experience. 

There is a force of goodness from God that perpetually flows into everything.

 When I come into relationship with myself, the first thing I come into relationship with is sensation; and the root of sensation is in this higher energy which is a force of goodness.

I am given goodness at all times, always and everywhere, and yet I forget it. If I’m in relationship with myself and my sensation of Being, I am instantly and deeply aware of this goodness, which comes before everything and is Truth. When Jesus said, I am the way and the truth and the life, he was actually referring to this initial goodness of God which is where everything around us begins, and is there even before we are there with it and for it.

 I say we are there for it because the entire first point of our Being is to serve this force of goodness. There’s no point in being politically correct or fashionable by saying that the force is just there, and that there's no quality or nature to it. Its entire and essential nature is goodness, because it emanates from the essential forces of God’s love and good. 

Love begets good; and so we are begotten of love. When we speak about the first point of Being we have to understand first that we are begotten of love; and our sensation of our Being immerses us from the start in this begetting.

 It’s quite possible to walk around in life with absolutely no understanding of this. Most of us do. We are not awakened to the nature of this first point of Being; we don’t sense God’s love as it flows into us, even though our organism was designed for this purpose. This leads us to believe in ourselves first, and the instant that we begin there, everything of God’s is lost.

You might ask why things of God can be lost; and that is a deep mystical question with no easy answer. Yet the sensation of my Being can bring me to an understanding — without words — in which I see the nature of this condition, regardless of the reasons for it. It is much more to see the nature of condition than it is to have an explanation for why it is so; the why of it is already explained by its nature itself. Either I lack the nature of God and Being or I have it. There is no middle ground here. The lack produces my selfishness; the having of it erases me.

In becoming nothing, I receive everything. This is a good place to begin. If I see the goodness, and I understand organically how I forget it and fail to live in relationship with it, then my awareness points me more clearly and more consistently towards that relationship so that I go back to it. I then continually make an intelligent and conscious effort within awareness of sensation, intelligence, and feeling to turn myself towards this first point of Being.

It is possible, within this condition, to sense the goodness of all things. It’s not too much to say that this changes everything; that the whole world is sacred, if I can only see it from within in this way. That changes my attitude; almost all of my evil and destructive impulses lose their power, even though they remain the same in every other way. Without their power, they become meaningless; their existence alone is not enough to give them influence over what takes place within.

One might say that their impulse, their influence, everything that gives them power, arises from this lack of an impression of the good. This is another secret of Christ’s saying, the Kingdom of Heaven is within. The Kingdom of Heaven, like Being, begins with the sensation of the good, because it is always within us. It’s called a kingdom because it is superior to the world: it is not made of the world, but the world is made of it. And it is called heaven because it is above us, that is, it is a higher and better influence than anything which we can make ourselves.
Wishing the best for you on this day,

Lee

Lee van Laer is a Senior Editor at Parabola Magazine.