A Harmonically Distributed Sensation—Part V—Organic Self-Remembering

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I need to understand this question of life with my sensation, which is of the body, first. 

This is a perceptive faculty that begins and ends in the unknown: it does not think with the mind of the intellect, it cannot know with the mind of the intellect, and it is functionally separate from the mind of the intellect. A respect for that separation, instead of an effort co-opted to some other purpose, is essential to understanding the principle here.

If I'm going to build an inner church — a sacred place — it must be built on this rock. This solid and still place.

This absolutely silent yet gloriously aware place.

 When I say that this place begins and ends with the unknown, once again, I speak from it as I write this. The intellect knows what it is saying here; and you know it through intellect as you read it. Yet the sensation has a different capacity for understanding, and we can't know it with the mind — it's a direct experience of the unknown, which invites us into it over and over again in every instant to question the nature of our Being.

What is this?

 When we engage in this activity, we discover that death lies within this as much as life does, because the forces of life and death are equal and joined. Once again, this is understood organically, without the middleman that the words represent here. We can only know our life fully by knowing death with it in this way. Then we see how we manifest, and what the momentary nature of our arising is.

 The understanding of the body begins with this understanding of an unknown arising that begins forever in every instant with a rate of vibration. To be conscious of this is the beginning of a capacity to begin working. Without this understanding, I'm only dreaming about inner work. Even if and when I develop it, I am only at that moment a candidate for work, because I've just developed an understanding of what real work can be. 

The re-investment in—remembering of— the organic sensation of Being at every moment represents the organic nature of self remembering, as opposed to the intellectual one. And if we don’t have an organic self-remembering, we have nothing.  That is, we have intellect, which alone can do nothing.

So when I say I begin again and again here, I do not begin again and again when the thought notices that something is missing. I begin again and again from the foundation which my sensation has already provided, which does not speak but demonstrates. The demonstration of Being from within sensation is a much more powerful tool for the perception of self than the conceptualization of Being from within intellect. So I need to distinguish quite clearly between demonstration and conceptualization; and the only thing that will help me with that is the resident presence of this energy within the molecular state of the organism.

Wishing the best for you on this day,

Lee

Lee van Laer is a Senior Editor at Parabola Magazine.