I just sit here quietly now.
I don't have to cling to any stubborn beliefs. The day will take care of itself later. Everything within me already knows how to disposition such matters; I just need to allow it, and participate. For now, everything is good just as it is; I'm letting the impressions of life flowing to me gently, understanding what a gift it is to dwell in this organism and receive what life brings.
I think, sometimes, that everyone has forgotten how to do this. To come into a much simpler relationship with nature and accept it. Not just with external nature; that in itself is an extraordinary and powerful force which I don't appreciate at all, it's true, and which might have a much deeper transformational effect on my being if I could come into a deeper and more natural relationship with it.
Yet first, before the natural world — which is an eternally flowing blessing, no matter how much damage mankind does to it – comes into me, I try to form a more intimate and loving relationship with my parts, which are here with me. They are what receives everything, after all; and they are like faithful animals, like dogs, who come together in a loyal and obedient way if they are properly tended to.
This is an idea about sensation. For many years, I study it and I think I have an idea of what it is, because I have a picture of the dog. I know what it looks like, the way it walks and runs, how it behaves, and I begin to understand from the pictures that the dog needs to be fed and cared for, and so on. But for many years I just study the dog in my encyclopedia. I don't have a real dog.
Then, one day, lo and behold, a real dog appears. It's just a puppy. It's absolutely nothing like all the theories I formed about dogs, it is a living, breathing thing that supports me and loves me. Up until now, my encyclopedia relationship has been a one-way relationship; but now, it's reciprocal.
Somehow, I need to develop a relationship with his loyal, obedient, and faithful partner who can help me so much. I need to not just have a picture of the dog; I need to have a permanent dog — one who is at my side at all times. Not as a servant or slave, so much as an equal partner in my life.
It's this permanent dog that makes a difference; because no matter how far I wander, the dog is always by my side.
I can learn love by coming into relationship with this dog; yet I need to bring my intelligence to that, because the dog needs my intelligence in the same way that I need its obedience and faithfulness.
This subject will be of interest to those interested in studies of the enneagram and the question of why Gurdjieff said man has six—and not five—senses.
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Lee van Laer is a Senior Editor at Parabola Magazine.