Sunday, March 1, 2015

Sensation of Being

Metropolitan Museum of Art, NY

Reader question. 

What is the relationship beetween normal sensations and sensation of being. What is the same and what is different? 


This seems like a pretty good question to me.

"Normal" sensations are ordinary sensations, that is, they belong to an order — and the order is of this level

My normal sensation only arises as the result of a vibration of material energy from this level. To be sure, this level of vibration isn't a single discrete field of action—it constitutes a whole octave of its own — and there are levels of normal sensation all the way from the most crude to much more refined, higher, yet still normal or ordinary sensations. 

I might, for example, use the analogy of a football player screaming when his team scores a goal — that is one kind of sensation, because after all, along with the emotion, there is a powerful sensation of the body in physically expressing in that way. On the other hand, there is the sensation of a classical music enthusiast listening to a Beethoven symphony — and we would probably agree that, while that invokes a sensation, it is more refined. Yet both of them lie within the same octave, on this level.

In the same way, if I hit my hand with a hammer, I will have a certain kind of sensation — and when I sit in meditation sensing myself, I'll have another kind of sensation, which we can once again probably agree is more refined. It comes from a higher level of vibration; yet this sensation from an exercise is often what we would call an invoked sensation—that is, while it represents what is perhaps the highest level of sensation possible "from" this level, it does not come from a higher level. It is under my will and my attention and intention; and things that come from my own will and my own attention and intention can never exceed the level I am on. They can come very close to a higher level; perhaps even brush up against it and "attract" it; but they still belong to me.

Sensation of Being comes from a higher level. It's also constructed of an entire octave of its own, which, at its first note (re) "touches" the highest note of the octave below it. But this is a much finer and more active sensation which knows itself, first, and thus has an awareness of its own, not the awareness I impart to it. If I see myself as separated from my sensation — "I" sense myself — this is from the lower level of vibration. But when sensation develops its own "I" — then, it is active and has begun to arrive from an octave above me.

In what may seem to be an apparent paradox, as it arrives from the octave above me, it passes through me in automatically completely fills or activates the octave beneath me, because although it has authority over both octaves, it can in a certain sense complete the one beneath me, because it is of a much lower level. In this way one comes to a permanent and entire sensation of the body from the atomic or cellular level.

One should note that sensation of Being does not feel anything at all like ordinary sensation. This is how it is recognized. If it is understandable, if it is familiar; if you find that you can explain it to yourself, then it's not from a higher level of vibration. What characterizes sensation of Being, above all, is its fundamental, categorical, absolute difference from everything that is known; so much so that initial encounters with it are, at the very least, astonishing.  

Once one is thrust into the unknown; then one knows. 

I prefer not to engage in lengthy descriptions of such sensation, as it does not lend itself at all well to words. The mystery of it is part of the whole point. 

However, for those interested in more descriptive details, Patty de Llosa's Taming Your Inner Tyrant contains an accurate report of just such an experience. 

There's of course another somewhat different way to understand this question, since each octave represents a note on a higher octave, but that is a second explanation which the reader ought to try and understand for themselves, given what has already been said.


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