Friday, September 20, 2013

Ouroboros- the second lifetime




In inner work, one needs to live twice. The reason for this is a bit complex, but I'll try to explain it.

When one is young- and up until one gains enough conscious impressions to actually engage in any inner effort to understand one's Being- all impressions of one's life, which are actually, in their totality, essential in order to form Being itself, are taken in mechanically. This is inevitable; and lawful, unavoidable. 

Yet it isn't enough, because in order to be truly useful, truly integrated into Being, all of those impressions will ultimately need to be re-ingested and digested all over again with the conscious participation of Being, in relationship with a higher energy.

This means one must re-experience the essential moments and events of one's life and take them more deeply into one's being a second time; otherwise they can't properly form the material the soul needs to engage in true Self-examination and the consequent process of remorse of conscience. It's impossible, you see, to experience real remorse over mechanically ingested impressions; they have never touched or come into contact with the higher parts of Being that exist in the deepdown, and can't have any action on the inner parts they were meant to transform.

Each impression of one's earlier life ought to be performing that role; but they have to be brought into relationship in order to do that. When Gurdjieff explained that older people often began come to a real understanding of inner work, but only after it was too late to help, this is what he was referring to, because this process is a lengthy one. It can't be rushed or organized according to any special set of principles, but must, rather, take place naturally and within a rhythm that is established by the harmonious resonance of the various parts of one's inner being.

Gurdjieff's recitation of his life events in Meetings with Remarkable Men was part of his own such process; he wrote the book after understanding the matter, although he did not objectify it, instead offering it as a form of storytelling or mythology. This is largely because he could only set the example; and he always was all about having us explore and discover for ourselves.

Our inner effort, once we understand it, needs to be to confront these impressions (stand face to face with them) and take them in through the feeling-centered action of the inner energy centers. This is one of the higher functions of what yogis call the chakras; although they are generally celebrated in esoteric work because of their vibrational and emanative properties, they are actually part of the inner digestive apparatus. That is, although one may experience them as radiant, they are actually meant to be organs of absorption.

The vibrations and "emanations" (absorptive actions) of chakras take place during the moments when deeper impressions are correctly digested; and the science behind this is too complicated by far to be covered in books or essays. It is a sacred inner science and needs to be measured by feeling-experience. Real yogis won't attempt to explain the detailed actions because they cannot be explained in any ordinary terms, that is, any terms at all. Only the inner sense of being can engage in and understand this digestion of life, which proceeds in conjunction with newly arriving impressions.

In this larger inner sense, we eat our own lives, both as they occur, and within the context of everything that has already occurred. We are food for ourselves; and this is is one of the secret meanings of the symbol of the work ouroborous, the snake that swallows its own tail.

May your soul be filled with light.

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