Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Don't touch it!

Tremendous resistance on Monday morning.

It's interesting to watch the process of undergoing an internal time change. All of one's inner energies are turned upside down; the ability to receive impressions more deeply suffers badly for three or four days.

Then something changes; and one discovers a new relationship all over again. Even though it's the same relationship—a quite ordinary one—it has been forced to re-establish itself by turning upside down, and so it's all of a sudden appreciated more.

More often than not, this produces a "result" of one kind or another, that is, the deficit one is operating from eventually transforms itself and becomes an asset. A new energy is able to enter because of the disruption of one's ordinary state; and so the struggle to reassert the action of Time upon Being in a manner that is harmonized with the side of the planet one is currently on ultimately turns out to have positive spiritual benefits.

In any event, this morning I got up ready to return to work at my NY office, and was extremely negative. I'm always negative in the morning anyway, but this morning was much worse than usual. It seemed to be an active polarity of sorts, because just before waking up I had a remarkable dream about a wish-granting gem, a large topaz crystal. Inner conditions, the dream was telling me, were becoming beneficial; but upon awakening, the inner energy was quite bad.

One has to overcome such things in order to move into the day; and in this what's needed is a great deal of ignoring one's self and how one is.

That kind of exercise is essential; one needs to not only see one's self, but to learn to in a certain sense ignore what one sees. Too much of it is basically damaging and under bad influences, which is typical, I think, of all of us; and we need to turn our heads away from that even as we see it. Not to try and correct it or deal with it, not to try and fix it: no, one must not touch it. It's trying, after all, to attract us and consume us; and as best we can, we must not agree to be food for our own negativity.

The negative parts want to touch me; they are strong and have all kinds of unpleasant impulses. Interestingly, they are quite aware of themselves and the more they are ignored, the more strident they tend to become, thinking that making more noise will allow them to touch me. There are many things our negative parts want, but above all they would like us to pay attention to them; and so it is our absolute duty and obligation to actively pay attention to other things which are not entangled in this inner nonsense.

To just look straight ahead is enough. One need not look either to the left or the right, from whence these lower inner influences come; one looks straight ahead, perhaps even without thinking—with a blank mind, a mind open to the possibilities of the future but in any event and at all costs not focused on these negativities which are breeding like small, biting insects inside us.

In looking straight ahead, one faces the unknown: but it is objective, not contaminated by the negative, just unknown.

After a morning of this effort, eventually, a much deeper sense of self arises. It is gravitational, grounded, and draws life—real life, not the life of the imagination— in around it gently, until one senses the there-ness in one's Being.

This there-ness has an unassailable quality... because it has been earned, not taken for granted.

May your soul be filled with light.

1 comment:

  1. Dear Lee, welcome back to New York and its own hustle and bustle. I remember us talking about the various chakras (centers, wheels, lotus blossoms etc.) and I remember telling you about two minor chakras that are traditionally forbidden to be meditated upon unless they opened up their own accord – the Vrshakalpa-chakra,and its companion, the chakra of unutterable anguish. The vrkshakalpa-chakra is behind and below the heart to the left and within it is the wish fulfilling tree at the base of which is one's personal altar upon which ones chosen deity resides.

    Upon this altar is placed two items – the fondest wish of the innermost heart, and the single task of a man's destiny.

    And the reason for its being forbidden is well told in the stories of the genies and the three wishes.

    The replacement of the true inner wish of the heart with any other egoistic wish is considered as a rape, and opens the other paired chakra which is the "seat of unutterable anguish", which is always the state in which a man is left when he seeks to replace the genuine gem of the innermost wish with any other wish concerning power or money or women,etc...

    I think your dream of a transparent topaz in that place is extremely important and protective of you. I just did a little computer window shopping and came up with this:

    "Topaz is a crystal of Truth and forgiving. It is a symbol of chastity, happiness, true friendship and hope. It helps us to find our true purpose and destiny. The topaz crystal is able to make us more aware of our thoughts, feelings and actions, and of their karmic effects. As such, it is able to activate our Cosmic awareness. By removing the stagnant energies, it directs the body energy to those places where it is most needed. The topaz healing abilities are connected to spiritual and physical rejuvenation. It releases tension and promotes feelings of joy and happiness."...

    "Topaz helps in establishing a practical point of view when it comes to life in general. It is thought to be able to point in the direction of the most practical solution to any problem or situation."

    So perhaps this dream that you had before waking up is indicative of the help that you will receive in the turmoil and throes of your moving from one side of the planet to another.

    To me, you are a most valued essence friend, and it is always pleasing to be able to follow your inner life through the arduous process of rendering your inner life to the open-air and allowing your inner work to be seen by others – many of whom have been helped enormously
    – Richard


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